This morning at church I was struck so deeply with emotion; I danced in the aisle as we worshiped, and I felt the Lord so near to me. I envisioned him kissing me on the cheek,\ and romantically wrapping his arms around me as I so sensually soaked up fractions of this deep river of love he has for me. Some days I can only hear it trickling in the distance like a small creek, but today I was standing so close to it. The sound of His love so distinct I could nearly see the white caps on the water and the calm pools of eddys banking behind the rooted rocks. What a wondrous love. What an amazing God to captivate me so even though the human, physical parts of me want to say that the desire for sensuality can only be satisfied the ways my own understanding can know. But God is dynamic, and God knows no boundaries to our souls, and our deep hearts desire.
I can nearly feel his love inching around on my skin like a lovers fingertips grazing the fine hairs on my arm. I can nearly see his eyes looking deeply into my own, and knowing me more deeply than I could ever ask to be known. I can hold his hands which he places over both of my cheeks to dry my tears and kiss me on my forehead; a kiss that surges electricity through my most hidden longings and gazes straight into them with adoration. No human can enter that realm as my beloved Lord can.
I am wrapped up within all of my beloved Lord's adoration.
My skin tingling, I asked Him why I have deserved to feel so deeply this morning, and he gazes so lovingly into me and says, "You don't have to deserve it. I adore you." It's not earned. It just is. And I weep with love and I weep for what is to come and I weep for what I cannot yet know which will be so mezmerising and so euphoric yet so grounded when I meet my Lord in the heavens one day.
I heard a glimpse of those heavenly celebrations in church today as well. We silenced ourselves and I wept from the depths of my heart for the happenings in Northern Iraq. "Lord have mercy, Lord have mercy," I sobbed! And he answered with sounds of heavenly celebration for those have come to enter his Kingdom after unjust and hateful crimes have taken their lives. The bells are now ringing for those children and families and individuals. The Lord embraces them with His palms placed firmly on their cheeks as He looks knowingly into their eyes, and they joyfully enter into His Kingdom for eternity.
Lord have mercy for those who Love you and those who don't yet know blissful romance of Your gaze. Gaze into all of us, that we may learn to gaze back.
